time sure have flied.... 6 months... 6 months since that day (note: my blog song is "since that day" in case u dunno) i was sick... in my long absence... things happened... i knew it did... i just din voice it out... but now... 6 months later... i discovered what i missed out... why... why did it happened... though it was 6 month back.. it still stinged my heart i admit... took note of those days.... and i return to read a few things tt was kept since tt day... now i truly understand what it means... though minor details are still lacking... doshite... also... went back to read my blog entry on that day...

      i saw... me... a hidous me... trying hard to hide myself.... from being exposed of my fragile state... i wrote... long and lotsa stuff that was not impt... i knew what was on my mind... i wanted to pour my soul out... but i can't... i couldn't let people know... of how sad i was... how easily my heart could have been broken... the entry also indicate how insecured i felt... i know that feeling insecure is not the way for me to be... i shld be a real man... and be confident and all... yet now... now that i realised "that" i felt so right to be so insecured... how many more... how many more things have i NOT know??

      i feel so sad for the me 6 months back... but i know... you wouldn't understand a single thing.